Inspired

I wonder..

Can this blog inspires someone?

Like how I was inspired by a wonderful poet

Who shares his artwork through his blogs??

I'm not up to that level yet 

One day, perhaps

One little girl or boy happens to read this weird blog

And finds it interesting

Inspiration for them, they calling it

Inspires to write their own blog

I call this my own place

Cos I seldom talk bout myself to people

I talk to my wall, pillow, Bin Bin Tang Tang

But not to human beings

Hope you will be inspired too

Maybe?

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I took 30 minutes to only type..

I MISS YOU

but I deleted them because I know I cannot say those words to him cos he belongs to someone else

I can only smile even though he knows this is such a damn fucking fake smile

Stop this! Stop playing with your own heart. 

You are wonderful. Treat yourself better Qaqa!!! I am begging you

:)

My Ideal Type of Guy (who does not even exist in this real world cos he lives in the world of Qaqa's Imagination only)

*athletic
I love love love love love love love love love love athletes!! David Beckham, Amirulhadi Zainal, Lee Chong Wei, Lee Young Dae!! I just love them so much!!!!

*who doesn't own a blog/blogger
Don't like it. Find them less manly? Perhaps

*who likes football and actually plays football
They look sexy *nose bleeding

*who doesn't post weird stuffs on their FB
Hate such status- "Buat bakal isteriku", "Bercinta till jannah", "Kaulah bidadari ku", "Abang cinta ayang sampai mati", "B loves sayang so much"
Hate it so much. Make it private la between you and her. Don't tell the whole word on how much you love her but then you are embarrassed to death to say such words to your parents. Get a life! (hate me kan. so fucking kejam my comment. haha)

*does man's stuff

*smart
I don't like good looking guys. I just simply love smart people >_<

*cool
Hoya from Infinite is so very much cool that I want to marry him!

*sepet!!!!
tak semestinya

*mysterious

*funny

*as sweet as honey

*can talk about almost everything with me
From the current issues happening in the world, to how to fix problems with your computers!

*can speak English
it's a bonus :)

*loves travelling, music, cool stuff
Let's do them together!

*who can guide me through the days and nights

*who can make my family happy and comfortable

*who loves children

*who puts me on top of his priority after his parents and siblings

*who loves me the way I am

*who can wipe my tears

*who can look after me very well
I  am always sick :(

*who can be my good friends

*who can make me cry when I am thinking of him

:)

But still, I'm searching for my Mr. Right.. I know I won't meet him yet.. Till then, I will be one lonely meat who sits in front of the lappy typing such things! Pathetic.. I will smile.. Always. Smile is my biggest confidence, my stunning accessory and my way to continue being fake.. Move like swagger! Yaahuuu >_<v

Help Me Weyh!

I did not notice the black hole

I thought it was nothing

I thought of going there

To comfort myself

I did not notice the fact that the black hole was there

It was always there

These eyes of mine

Were covered for the whole time

I could see, but I could not see

I was trapped

Inside that black hole

Yelling, screaming, shouting

Out loud

But nobody's there

To grab the hands

Make me climb the black hole

And to be able to breath again

Even for the very last time

I'm dying

Help me..

I'm dying

Slowly

Help me..

Before I close my eyes

And become one with the black hole..

Forever

Kau Jaga Dia

It's a relief to know that he is safe 

Someone is looking after him really well

I pray for them

For their lives

And their happiness

I'll be watching

Please be happy

Cause when you are happy

I can force myself to at least smile

Kau jaga dia

Baik-baik

Just Nothing

Tuhan,

Kalau dia bukan untukku.. Kau carikan lah yang terbaik buatnya.. Gembirakan hati dia lebih dari ketika dia bersamaku. Jagalah dia dan mereka yang berada di sekelilingnya. Aku redha jika ini kesudahan cerita kami.. Kau lebih mengetahui.. Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhi hari-hari tanpanya. Aku yakin Kau akan bersamaku, tiap hari tiap masa dan tiap ketika..

Amin.. Ya rabbalalamin

Selera, Hati, Mata

Dah 4 hari aku tak makan nasik.. Ainon si classmate tegur cakap pipi dah kurus. Senyum dari telinga kanan ke telinga kiri bila dengar pujian. Ainon tanya apa rahsia? Aku jawab aku tak makan nasik. Ainon tanya lagi kenapa tak makan nasik? Aku jawab takde selera..

Betul.. Takde selera. Aku tak tahu mana pergi selera makan aku. Aku cuba cari, tapi dia nyorok diam-diam tak nak kasi aku jumpa dia. Aku panggil dia, tapi dia kunci bibir tak menyahut. Aku cuba pancing dia dengan pergi gerai nasik lemak peberet depan kampus, tapi dia buat dek je. Kuat dia tahan nafsu!

Maybe sebab susah hati, selera tak nak keluar. Dia mogok. Dia tak suka hati susah sendiri. Dia nak teman hati. Sama-sama tanggung apa yang hati rasa. Selera ni baik. Dia tahu kalau dia muncul depan aku, aku tak ingat lagi pasal si hati yang sedang susah dan lara. 

Takpe lah hati, aku dan selera teman kau ya. Biar kita rasa sama-sama susah.. Mata pun nak ikut serta tapi aku tak bagi sebab mata ni tak kuat. Bila hati susah, dia asyik nak keluarkan air mata je. Katanya air mata tak tertahan nak keluar bila hati susah. Aku pun tak nak mata ikut kami. Biar aku, selera dan hati je sama-sama rasa susah. Mata sila senyum bersama bibir.. :-) Itu kerja kau dan bibir. Amanat aku untuk kamu..

Hari ini.. Aku, selera dan hati sama-sama susah dan sedih.. 

Zzzzzzzzz

Zzzzzzz Zzzzzzz 

Tidur.. Tidur..

Kerja lain takde

Kerja mudah tidur

Tak pening. Tak penat. Tak sakit

Malah nikmat dapat

Aku peduli apa

Biar tak cukup makan

Jangan tak cukup tidur

Zzzzzzz Zzzzzzzz

Just Give Me A Reason

Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat weren't all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep oh ohThings you never say to me oh oh
Tell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
It's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again